Two months

He’s a whisper… a shout… often a cry but no matter how he comes through he is always on my mind. It has been 2 months and still I am distracted 100% of the time — I am never fully invested in my laugh or smile and I miss that very much. I miss me. It’s as though I am living two lives at once… a life that is seen and the cinematic tragedy that plays over and over in my head. It is no wonder I feel as though my tank and my reserves are depleted. His name circles my mind in chord with my inhale and exhale.

My thoughts of Saunder never leave…

Thoughts of our life together; Curiosity about the journey his soul is on now.

I send him all my love to take with him on his way. I know it strengthens him, as love does, and he sends timely messages of love and strength to us.